Thursday, June 30, 2011

The Hound of Heaven

A couple of weeks ago, my pastor quoted part of this
beautiful poem in his sermon. 
I just had to post it on here. It will definitely make you think...



The Hound of Heaven

by

Francis Thompson (1859-1907)


I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;
  I fled Him, down the arches of the years;
I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways
  Of my own mind; and in the mist of tears
I hid from Him, and under running laughter.
                  Up vistaed hopes I sped;
                  And shot, precipitated,
Adown Titanic glooms of chasmed fears,
From those strong Feet that followed, followed after.
                  But with unhurrying chase,
                  And unperturbèd pace,
                Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
                  They beat--and a Voice beat
                  More instant than the Feet--
                "All things betray thee, who betrayest Me."

                  I pleaded, outlaw-wise,
By many a hearted casement, curtained red,
  Trellised with intertwining charities
(For, though I knew His love Who followed,
                  Yet was I sore adread
Lest having Him, I must have naught beside);
But if one little casement parted wide,
  The gust of His approach would clash it to.
  Fear wist not to evade, as Love wist to pursue.
Across the margent of the world I fled,
  And troubled the gold gateways of the stars,
Smiting for shelter on their clanged bars;
                  Fretted to dulcet jars
And silvern chatter the pale ports o' the moon.
I said to dawn, Be sudden; to eve, Be soon;
  With thy young skyey blossoms heap me over
                  From this tremendous Lover!
Float thy vague veil about me, lest He see!
  I tempted all His servitors, but to find
My own betrayal in their constancy,
In faith to Him their fickleness to me,
  Their traitorous trueness, and their loyal deceit.
To all swift things for swiftness did I sue;
  Clung to the whistling mane of every wind.
                  But whether they swept, smoothly fleet,
                The long savannahs of the blue;
                    Or whether, Thunder-driven,
                  They clanged his chariot 'thwart a heaven
Plashy with flying lightnings round the spurn o' their feet--
                  Still with unhurrying chase,
                  And unperturbèd pace,
                Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
                  Came on the following Feet,
                  And a Voice above their beat--
                "Naught shelters thee, who wilt not shelter Me."

I sought no more that after which I strayed
                In face of man or maid;
But still within the little children's eyes
                Seems something, something that replies;
They at least are for me, surely for me!
I turned me to them very wistfully;
But, just as their young eyes grew sudden fair
                With dawning answers there,
Their angel plucked them from me by the hair.
"Come then, ye other children, Nature's--share
With me," said I, "your delicate fellowship;
                Let me greet you lip to lip,
                Let me twine with you caresses,
                  Wantoning
              With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses'
                  Banqueting
                With her in her wind-walled palace,
                Underneath her azured daïs,
                Quaffing, as your taintless way is,
                    From a chalice
Lucent-weeping out of the dayspring."
                    So it was done;
I in their delicate fellowship was one--
Drew the bolt of Nature's secrecies.
                  I knew all the swift importings
                  On the wilful face of skies;
                  I knew how the clouds arise
                  Spumèd of the wild sea-snortings;
                    All that's born or dies
                  Rose and drooped with--made them shapers
Of mine own moods, or wailful or divine--
                  With them joyed and was bereaven.
                  I was heavy with the even,
                  When she lit her glimmering tapers
                  Round the day's dead sanctities.
                  I laughed in the morning's eyes.
I triumphed and I saddened with all weather,
                  Heaven and I wept together,
And its sweet tears were salt with mortal mine;
Against the red throb of its sunset-heart
                    I laid my own to beat,
                    And share commingling heat;
But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart.
In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's gray cheek.
For ah! we know not what each other says,
                These things and I; in sound I speak--
Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences.
Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth;
                  Let her, if she would owe me,
Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me
                  The breasts of her tenderness;
Never did any milk of hers once bless
                    My thirsting mouth.
                    Nigh and nigh draws the chase,
                    With unperturbèd pace,
                  Deliberate speed, majestic instancy;
                    And past those noisèd Feet
                    A voice comes yet more fleet--
"Lo naught contents thee, who content'st not Me."

Naked I wait Thy love's uplifted stroke!
My harness piece by piece Thou hast hewn from me,
                    And smitten me to my knee;
                I am defenseless utterly.
                I slept, methinks, and woke,
And, slowly gazing, find me stripped in sleep.
In the rash lustihead of my young powers,
                I shook the pillaring hours
And pulled my life upon me; grimed with smears,
I stand amid the dust o' the mounded years--
My mangled youth lies dead beneath the heap.
My days have crackled and gone up in smoke,
Have puffed and burst as sun-starts on a stream.
                Yea, faileth now even dream
The dreamer, and the lute the lutanist;
Even the linked fantasies, in whose blossomy twist
I swung the earth a trinket at my wrist,
Are yielding; cords of all too weak account
For earth with heavy griefs so overplussed.
                Ah! is Thy love indeed
A weed, albeit amaranthine weed,
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount?
                Ah! must--
                Designer infinite!--
Ah! must Thou char the wood ere Thou canst limn with it?
My freshness spent its wavering shower i' the dust;
And now my heart is a broken fount,
Wherein tear-drippings stagnate, spilt down ever
                From the dank thoughts that shiver
Upon the sighful branches of my mind.
                Such is; what is to be?
The pulp so bitter, how shall taste the rind?
I dimly guess what Time in mist confounds;
Yet ever and anon a trumpet sounds
From the hid battlements of Eternity;
Those shaken mists a space unsettle, then
Round the half-glimpsed turrets slowly wash again.
                But not ere him who summoneth
                I first have seen, enwound
With blooming robes, purpureal, cypress-crowned;
His name I know, and what his trumpet saith.
Whether man's heart or life it be which yields
                Thee harvest, must Thy harvest fields
                Be dunged with rotten death?

                  Now of that long pursuit
                  Comes on at hand the bruit;
                That Voice is round me like a bursting sea:
                  "And is thy earth so marred,
                  Shattered in shard on shard?
                Lo, all things fly thee, for thou fliest Me!
                Strange, piteous, futile thing,
Wherefore should any set thee love apart?
Seeing none but I makes much of naught," He said,
"And human love needs human meriting,
                How hast thou merited--
Of all man's clotted clay rhe dingiest clot?
                Alack, thou knowest not
How little worthy of any love thou art!
Whom wilt thou find to love ignoble thee
                Save Me, save only Me?
All which I took from thee I did but take,
                Not for thy harms.
But just that thou might'st seek it in my arms.
                All which thy child's mistake
Fancies as lost, I have stored for the at home;
                Rise, clasp My hand, and come!"

  Halts by me that footfall;
  Is my gloom, after all,
Shade of His hand, outstreched caressingly?
  "Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest,
  I am He Whom thou seekest!
Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me."
Francis Thompson (1859-1907) 



Wednesday, June 29, 2011

A Thousand Sleepless Nights

"What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it
takes to know You're near? What if trials of this life are Your
mercies in disguise?"
~ Laura Story, "Blessings"


   Whenever God wants to really get a point across to me, He usually doesn't let me sleep until I "get it". I'm one of those people who needs to get totally numb before I can sleep. When my mind runs a billion miles an hour, or I'm stressing over something sleep just isn't an option. And sometimes it's not just that God wants me to know something.
He wants me to know He's there. Right there with me. 
No matter what.
   Sometimes things happen and I feel alone. When I'm going through something hard I tend to shut down and shut people out. I start to feel like no one knows exactly what I'm feeling or even going through. But I finally had a break through one night. During one of my "thousand sleepless nights." 
How could I not have confidence and find my comfort in God?
After all, He created me. He created my very being.
He felt everything that I feel.
He took everything that hurts me to the cross.
He bore it and He WON!!
   I am never alone. I can have peace and let everything go because Jesus bore it and defeated it. The things that would sink their teeth in to me, the things Satan hurls at me are powerless. 
"Satan can gum you to death, but his teeth have been removed."
~ John Piper
   So, in spite of the rambling, what I wanted to really get across is don't push the sleepless nights away. Embrace the wakefulness. You'd very likely find that you aren't alone. You're never alone. 
   


   

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

"Blessings" by Laura Story


We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Heartbroken, But Strong




   It's kind of funny how easily breakable hearts are. Especially trusting hearts. You know, those hearts that lay it all on the line for the sake of love. Not just romantic love, but love for family and friends. Hearts truly are fragile things. 

   I've had my heart broken, several times in fact, and it's one of those hardships you never really get over. It sort of feels like your heart turns into a piece of pottery that's been glued back together: It still meets its purpose, but it doesn't look as good as it once did. It's brittle and jagged in some places. It might even be weak. And when it gets re-broken, sometimes it can't be fixed.

   But is there a way to keep a heart from breaking? I used to think there was, but now I don't think so. I used to think that if you completely guarded your heart that there was no way it could get broken. That's not even remotely possible. If you love someone you're putting your heart on the chopping block. Love has to be sacrificial. I think that if you truly love someone, you're willing to lay yourself down to fully love them. And sometimes people handle your heart roughly and it gets bruised or broken. 

   Even though people break hearts, God is a Healer and He will not break your heart. He lovingly heals while teaching valuable lessons in love and relationships. He puts the glue in that makes hearts stronger through the heartbroken seasons, hearts that beat stronger and love more deeply than before they were broken. 

   Sometimes I feel like my life is made up of heartbroken seasons. But I know that God is healing, and He's giving me a heart that's strong, a heart that's passionate, a heart that loves people for just being people. And He's giving me a heart that's crazy in love with Him.






   Through this long brokenhearted season, I'm finding myself falling into a love so deep and passionate that I know it won't let me go! I'm totally in love with my Jesus, my Healer.


   The Lord has really been using this song to encourage and uplift my heart the past couple years. Listen to the words. Find your shelter and your healing in the love of Jesus.


Polar Extremes, VBS 2011 Part 1

  As I promised, here is my Vacation Bible School 2011 post! There's so much to tell that I don't really know where to start. I guess the beginning is a good place!

  So we started VBS this past Monday. We were assaulted on Monday with an array of poster board, balloons, penguins that looked like they had stepped right out of "Angry Birds", icicle lights, stuffed polar bears, penguins and seals, clear Christmas lights, and random objects that would eventually come together to resemble igloos, snow and ice. Oh, and oceans that became homes to friendly killer whales. My team went a little further with dry ice to resemble polar fog.

  Around 5:40, kids started pouring in from the surrounding Smyrna area. Some of them came too excited for their own good, while others proved to be hard to impress. All of that changed in large group. Songs, memory verses and games set the stage for Pastor Oz's simple,yet powerful presentation of the Gospel. Several kids came forward to receive Christ. Pastor Oz used some fun illusions to make his points come across in an entertaining way. The kids absolutely loved it! Large group was spent the same way every night with many kids responding to receive Christ each night. At the final count, there were over 50 kids who'd prayed to receive Christ.



During snack time, Mrs. Raaen put on a really cute puppet show to talk to the kids about telling their friends about Jesus and inviting friends to come to VBS.

  The kids loved all the different crafts that we did. I think the absolute hit was face painting. =)







Large group was a huge success with its cool Eskimo village scene and the fun songs, verses, stories and even a few skits! It got pretty wild in there a couple times. =)









Don't miss part 2 of the VBS week, coming soon! =)






Friday, June 24, 2011

VBS 2011 Preview

  Here's just a glance of what God's been up to this week. Hopefully I'll be able to post more later today.









On Wednesday night, we did face painting on the kids. Our theme this year
was "Polar Extremes". It was fun trying to come up with different things to paint 
that went along with the theme. There was an array of snowmen, snowflakes,
*attempted* polar bears (purple was requested several times so we'd have a team mascot ;) ),
and even some crosses with snow coming down around them.



This is a little blurry, but this is the team I worked with: Purple Polar Bears!!! RAWR!!! =D



  Hopefully I'll be able to post some details and a couple more pictures today. But I hope this gives you just a small idea about how much of an absolute blast VBS has been this year. Hard to believe tonight is the last night!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Our Lives Are Made In These Small Hours

  So, here is my first attempt at posting on here. I don't know how faithful I'll be in keeping up with it. My life is pretty hectic, and there are a lot of things that could hinder regularity. But I'll do the best I can!

  Right now my life is just full of college studies and responsibilities. It can get monotonous and sometimes down right depressing. But like my mom keeps reminding me, and as God is showing me more and more every day, this is just a season in life; "small hours".

  That's basically what I want to write about here, the small hours. The little things that make up life. The things that change the other-wise normal days into the not-so-normal. 

  Rob Thomas' song "Small Wonders" is what inspired me to keep up with this blog. The chorus especially so:



Our lives are made in these small hours,

These little wonders,

These twists and turns of fate.

Time falls away,

But these small hours,

These small hours still remain.


  Obviously, I don't believe in "twists and turns of fate". I believe that God is in control of every aspect of my life, and that He knows exactly what is going to happen on my life's road. But it's the "small hours" part that really inspired me. The small hours are memories that last when "time falls away". They remain behind.